Don’t know whether I am getting old, today I took nearly 3 hours to finish 8 pages from a chapter of my required readings in my course.  I still have many pages left. I wonder why I am so slow. I don’t remember I had problems in my readings during my University days. Is it because of old age and my brain takes longer to absorb information? Is it because I am distracted? It’s kind of frustrating when I have ministry work to do and can’t speed up my readings. I was very determined to finish a reading a day within an hour. But looking at today, I seriously doubt so. I kept having to read again and again to make sure I understand the concepts. Perhaps it’s because I am reading concepts and theories that my speed is hampered.

Another thing that saddens me today is the death of Max, a 7-year-old boy. He has been battling relapsed neuroblastoma ever since last year and has been overcome by the disease. I do not know him. I got to know his parents’ blog max’s cancer through a professional photographer’s blog; deb schwedhelm, who created this blog mashed potatoes for breakfast together with his parents. I have been following the chronicles for a number of months, rejoicing when his condition showed some improvement, feeling sad when it became worse. He has become almost like a little brother and I do feel for him. I am going to miss him and reading about him.

Recent days had seen the cancer cells spread to other areas of his body. Though it was a foreshadow of looming death, I never realise it will be so soon and sudden. I can imagine how painful, how painful it must be for the family.

And Max did not know where heaven is or what heaven will be for him. That makes me even sadder.

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